Happy Birthday, Bennett!

I know we have already celebrated Bennett's first birthday twice (in California and at the farm) but today is officially the day.

My baby boy is One.

For much of my pregnancy with B, I feared that I would not have enough room in my heart to love him as much as I loved C. I was so consumed with Cullen, plus working and getting ready to move across country. We didn't find out that he was a boy (it was a surprise with C too) and I wasn't setting up a nursery since we were moving a week after my due date. To be honest, I just didn't connect with him the way I did with my first pregnancy. Then, at 12:45am on June 5th, after a very easy labor and delivery, he was born and I lost it. I cried exactly one tear with Cullen, but on that very early morning, I couldn't pull it together. He was just so perfect. And my heart grew a million times over at that moment. It honestly was emotionally overwhelming in the best way possible.

And now a year has gone by, and Bennett has changed my life. As first time parents, we were sure that Cullen was 'easy', but Bennett steals the show on easy baby. He's the baby you'll want to rent in order to convince your husband that you are ready for kids. He is funny, smart, mischievous, sweet and cuddly. He is a good sleeper, a good eater and a good independent player. He loves his big brother and laughs at everything. Mix that in with his white-hair-pseudo-baby mullet, dimples and big blue eyes, and he is guaranteed to melt your heart.

Bubs, we love you so much. I'm sorry that I didn't know how much I could love you and I thank you every day for letting me be your Mommy. You light up my life and complete our family in a way that I couldn't have imagined. You and Cullen are the best of friends and we couldn't be happier that you are only 2 years apart and will hopefully always play together. Thank you for being so incredibly sweet and happy 99% of the time. I can't wait to continue to watch you grow.

 Happy 1st birthday, my little darling!