The day after my 5th birthday, my little brother Andy was born. And like any new big sister, I was devastated. I had my heart set on a baby sister and was extremely disappointed with the news of another brother. The feelings of resentment quickly melted soon as I met the chunky baby who would later become the beloved Uncle Bummy however, I guess I was still a little sad about missing out on baby girl because that Christmas, my parents gave me Newborn.
And I loved this doll. She slept with my every night. Came on every vacation. Went with me into surgery in the 4th grade. Got married (in a lavish basement ceremony) to a stuffed Kermit the Frog. Went on walks around the neighborhood. Changed outfits for seasons or events. Came to college with me (and scared the crap out of my roommates with her creepy life-like presence).
Sadly, when Kev and I got married, Newborn retreated to a closet and has been perched high above in Cullen's room since. I spotted her there yesterday and it got me thinking about the things we chose to hold on to and that mean the most from childhood to adulthood. And of course of the things that my boys have already began to cherish.
|So what? I color coordinate C's polos. Totally normal.|
B sleeps with his 'white taggie blankie', Elephant, Dee-Dee the Teddy, two pacis and his dinosaur blanket. The Teddy Cullen picked out for him a the hospital. He came in, saw B sleeping, asked 'where's baby's teddy' and was appalled to hear that he didn't have one. So hand in hand, he dragged my mom to the store and picked out a smaller version of his own special Teddy.
|This is actually B's going-to-bed face. That's the last bit of his happiness that I see everyday. God love him.|
Cullen also has a plethora of 'bedtime buddies'. We have the original teddy and blue blankie which were gifts as a newborn. I don't remember where 'Taggie', the white blankie, came from but it became a staple over a year ago and he has to hold the tag every night. Thomas Pillow has been on the bed since my friend Cate sent in for his 2nd birthday. Then there is Ocean the Doggie and Mont the Monster, who of Bennett's gifts that he swiped and swears he will return 'when Bubba's a big boy'. All of these bedtime buddies must be set up precisely like this and we have to kiss them all goodnight.
As I lovingly set these up on a nighly basis, I often wonder which will make the cut as they get older. Which will comfort them when they are scared, share their secrets, travel far places and eventually make their way into the heart of their spouse one day and will be graciously kept forever (even if it is in a closet).